Sat suppose to go lesiure park first instead of gng there when the taxi driver pass kallang theatre i ask the taxi driver and drop me there.... After i got out of the cab every step i walk my heart beat went faster and faster and every step i walk i cant really lift up my leg i felt tat my leg is gtting heavy and cant even walk properly... It's been so long ever since my 18 bday and the pain, sorrow, sadness, my tears and emo feeling is still in my mind, i still can rmb every single details of wat happen few yrs back when i first saw yl over there... Everything refresh to me like things were happen few days or just weeks ago, hw she stare at me, wat she said to me on my bday, hw she dance and hw she just turn her back on me and walk away on my bday...
I stood at where she cried and i felt her pain, her fear, her tears and everyone who around her asking "who's tat guy" and "yl are u ok"? I sitted by the road side which was wat i did on my 18 bday and i felt tat i really did sth wrongly, i dint put myself into her shoes during tat time and wat i want was to ask for her forgiveness bt i dint noe things will turn out till nw still cant be settle down...
The road which road which both of us were across each others... She was standing on the left while i was seated down on the right....
"The hardest things to forget is to forget ur very true love"
I walk deeper in wanting to gt inside to see more things bt the gate were lock and many things change. I stood at the same place where i was so worried i cant see her and running up and down and that was also the place where yl saw me and just turn her back on me... Everything change so much... World tournament some of them cant find me is because i went there walk awhile too... Every single place at kallang theatre hv so much memoirs of me and hers, the first time i really encounter such problem and it has been 4yrs and cant be solve.... Jus nw i went down to tp to meet xiang jie and neopet guess wat, i saw her!!! I took the same bus with her and i donno she notice me a not cos she was sitted down bt i guess she notice me and i guess she wanted to aviod bt she cant. Seriously if both of us dint went thru all tis i guess we hv already said hi to each others already and both of us wont be torturing each others for 4yrs we're already so close bt the feeling were yet so far tat 4yrs are not even enough for us to solve misunderstanding we had.... "You don't mess with Johan" was'nt tat funny to a person who wanted to chill himself down and at least put on a smile on his face for his day... I was banging my car all the way just to vain my sadness and i chill and nt to emo bt seriously it's hard.... I hv promise a lot of ppl i'll forget her bt i cant, iszzit fated tat both of us can met each other but destiny state we're not suppose to be tgt???The locked gate....
That was the place where she stare at me and i dint notice it at all...
The place where she turn her back and walk away without saying anything haiz....
"We're so close, Yet so far"
Is there really a way or how solve tis problem other den give up and avioding?? Like wat i hv said if there is a way to make u turn back to me again i'll try my best no matter wat it is..... Yl y till nw u still cant understand my feelings haiz it's already 4yrs.... I don mind whoever said things bad things abt me bt wat matter the most is wat u said to me. Seriously if i hv a chance to be with u i'll choose to gv up everything and spent all my time with u... Nv tot tat things will turn to be so complicated and unexplainable, i noe all along it was my fault haiz.... Every single day every single moment whenever i thinking abut wat happen to us my tears drop i dont even have the mood to do my stuff whenever i thinking of u. Seriously i hope we can really end tis fast so tat both of us at least can lead wit a new life and also maybe a better life.... I'll nv forget wat u said tat night when u called me, dint we hv a nice chat tat night?? For 7mth we tried to gt along and everything goes well, bt y once u noe my id u left me again?? There's so many things tat i don understand haiz.... I guess wat i can do nw is to wait cos seriously i donno wat else i can do...
That was the place which i was waiting for her for donno 8 or 9 hrs....
The past...
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And nw.... left with nth...
