haiz i donno y i still cannt slep nw normally i slep ver early bt nw i reall donno y i cant slep...... cal judy to chat cos she is the only person who can reall understand me cos she n me hv the same attuide, same way of thinkin for an r/s i tok to her cos tis few days tim i dint reall go think abut 02 n the things tat happen tis few weeks bt suddenly todae i donno y thinkin of her again haiz....... tok to her till tears also fall frm my eyes........ cos i hv a tot of gng to ns den let tis matter rest for 2 more yrs den if i reall gt to c her again den we will tok abut it........... judy say " maybe it reall hard for u to forget her n she ask me to gt a new gal" n i told her i did try bt fail tats y im scare of hvin another fail r/s agian cos i still cant forget 02 i told myself i will try my best be i reall did bt nw still useless felt tat im so useless i cant do anything well, i shud nt come to tis world cos hvin me in tis world is reall a waste.............. haiz........ i also donno y i miss 02 so sudden maybe i reall love her too deep or wat ba......... n aft i c so many happy couple arund me n i felt ver envy n jealous y i cant hv a gf lik theirs?? Im i nt tat gd lookin?? or Im i jus a joker tat nv serious?? or i donno hw to treasure things arund me?? haiz.................
